Grief on
Wheels
Remembering
Randonneurs We Have Lost
Two of the most difficult moments of my life have come on
randonneuring events. Both involved the
death of a fellow randonneur.
The first was during a particularly groggy and
sleep-deprived stretch of Paris Brest Paris in 2011, when I came upon a number
of emergency vehicles in the outskirts of a village. I saw an abandoned bicycle under a truck, but
I did not stop to figure out what had happened, partly because I did not want
to get in the way, and partly because I did not then want to know the details. I knew in my bones that something bad had
happened.
As I continued the ride, the information that came to me about
the incident was fragmentary and confusing.
Eventually, I did get word that a rider had died. For a while, I thought that two riders had
been killed.
In my confused and exhausted state, I thought that the
death of a rider would surely mean the end of PBP for that year. “How could we continue after the tragic death
of a rider?” I asked myself over and over again, in the obsessive way one does
on a long ride. I was surprised, then,
when I arrived at the next control, and found that it was functioning as usual,
with no talk about closing down the ride.
Eventually, I, too, returned to normal, and stopped obsessing about the
disturbing scene I had witnessed.
Only after I finished did I learn that Thai Pham of the
DC Randonneurs had tragically died on the ride at the age of 58.
These painful memories of three years ago came flooding
back to me during a 200K in Ohio in March of this year. As I approached the turn-around point in
Troy, Ohio, I came upon a stretch of road that was closed off, with police
cruisers, a fire truck and ambulances blocking the way.
This time, there was no doubt about what had
happened. Joe Giampapa, a 56-year-old
cyclist from Columbus had been struck by a minivan and killed. His body lay along the side of the road, covered
by a blanket, and his mangled bicycle was some distance away. The windshield of the van was shattered, and
its driver sat in a police vehicle writing his report.
To be at this site was to feel deep loss. Beyond the mere fact of Joe’s untimely death
was the fact that there was no way of explaining it. He was killed in the late morning, when there
was plenty of light and no glaring sun on the horizon. The road was straight, with no chuckholes or
other barriers to dodge. The driver was not impaired in any obvious way. The bitter cruelty of Joe’s death was evident
to everyone who was there. A very kind
sheriff explained to the six of us who had come to the site what had happened,
and he could not hold back the tears as he did so.
Eventually, the sheriff told us that we could continue on
our ride. As on PBP, I was unsure about
what to do after the death of a fellow randonneur. Should we stop the ride to honor Joe? David Roderick, the Ohio Randonneurs RBA, had
arrived at the site, and, after some deliberation, he said that we should
decide for ourselves what to do. The
ride would continue, but everyone would understand if we decided to withdraw.
Some riders did withdraw.
But because I had driven three hours to get to the event, I did not have
an easy way to return to my car. And it
seemed that the safest way to return to the starting point was to follow the
brevet route. I and the riders with me
decided to continue.
We walked our bikes past Joe’s body. It was unbelievably sad. I could not think of any way to pay tribute
to Joe except to remove my helmet. It
seemed a woefully inadequate gesture.
Unfortunately, this scene was played out again on August
9th of this year, when Matthew O’Neill, a 33-year-old cyclist from
Chula Vista, was killed on the California Central Coast 1200K. As was the case
with Joe Giampapa, there is no good explanation for what happened to Matthew
O’Neill. He was killed at 7:30 p.m. on a
summer evening by a 16-year-old who was driving a truck hauling a horse trailer
on a straight road. There was nothing
about the weather, the state of the road, or the behavior of O’Neill that would
explain this inexplicable accident.
This was obviously a tragedy for Matthew O’Neill’s family
and many friends. But it must also have
been a terrible thing for those on the ride with him and for the organizers of
the event. I feel deep sympathy for
them.
With the help of Mark Thomas, I have been able to
identify four other riders, in addition to Joe Giampapa and Matthew O’Neill,
who have been killed on RUSA events during the 15-year history of the
organization.
Gustavo A. Antonini, aged 66, and his stepson William W.
Cupples, aged 44, were killed while riding in a bike lane on February 8, 2004
on a 300K brevet outside of Gainesville.
The driver left the scene of the accident, but flipped his truck over
about three miles down the road. The
driver was sentenced to 15 years for DUI manslaughter, and was spared a longer
sentence after the family of the victims wrote a letter expressing forgiveness
and asking for leniency in his sentencing.
Stan Oldak, a 60-year-old randonneur from New York City,
was hit by a truck and killed while riding a 400K near Columbus, Texas, on May
6, 2007. Oldak had been president of the
New York Cycle Club, and had come to Texas for the 400K in order to qualify for
Paris Brest Paris. The driver of the
truck that hit him left the scene of the accident, and, so nearly as I can
tell, was never apprehended.
James Swartzman, aged 46 from Encino, California, was hit
and killed early on the morning of April 10, 2011, while riding a 600K near Leucadia
State Beach. The motorist left the scene
of the accident, but was later apprehended and sentenced to two years for hit
and run manslaughter.
I am not well enough versed in the actuarial sciences to
say whether six deaths over the 15-year history of an organization that has had
10,000 members mean that randonneuring in the United States is particularly
dangerous. With over 30,000 highway
fatalities in the US each year, I am inclined to think that most randonneurs
are at greater risk when they drive to events than they are when they actually ride
them. In the age of the automobile and
jet plane, all forms of travel carry some risk, and I am not convinced that
cycling in general, or randonneuring, in particular, are especially dangerous
forms of travel.
I do know, however, that all of these deaths hurt. And I also know that 2014 has been a tough
year for RUSA. Not only have we had two
deaths, but, in the passing of Joe Giampapa and Matthew O’Neill, we have seen
two good men snatched away, in the prime of their lives, from their friends and
family. And there is simply no good
explanation for either death. As cyclists,
Joe and Matthew were doing everything right.
And yet they were killed.
One of the questions I have found myself thinking about
since riding through the site of Thai Pham’s death three years ago is this:
What do we owe to fellow randonneurs who have fallen?
If you are in the middle of an event where this happens,
it is hard to muster the detachment and good sense to give a reasonable answer
to this question. If it had been
entirely up to me, I think I would have cancelled the events in both Ohio and
in France. And I think that would have
been the wrong answer.
For one thing, if you are a near-witness to a death, it
is all too easy to put yourself in the place of the victim. What if I had reached this place in the
brevet an hour earlier? Or what if the
motorist had come by an hour later?
These are not merely hypothetical questions. You know in your heart that it could just as
easily have been you who died that day.
Moreover, being at the site gives you a deeper sense of
the loss than you would have if you had read about it afterward. For several weeks after the death of Joe
Giampapa, I was in touch with two randonneurs who were thinking about quitting
the sport because of what they had witnessed.
It wasn’t so much that they feared their own death as they feared what
their deaths would do to their wives and children. How could I put my family through that, they
asked?
Ultimately, though, they both kept riding, and they both
went on to finish longer RUSA rides in the course of the season. And it seems to me that this is the right
answer. Curiously, we honor our dead
best by continuing to do the sport that we love and that we share with
them. In this, randonneuring is like
life itself. Sooner or later, we must
all come to grips with the death of friends, colleagues and loved ones. But we cannot stop living out of deference to
the dead.
For this reason, I have been grateful for the wise and
humane guidance of organizers and riders who carry on despite grievous
circumstances. In Ohio, I was impressed
by the quiet dignity of David Roderick, David Buzzee, and the other volunteers
who made it possible to finish that ride.
And, while I was not there, I understand from the accounts of others
that the California Central Coast 1200K continued in a dignified and respectful
way after the death of Matthew O’Neill.
At the end of the day, I think, the best we can do for
fallen randonneurs is to keep riding, and to keep their memories alive.
One way to remember and honor those we have lost is to
work to change the circumstances that led to their deaths. After his death, the family of Joseph
Giampapa released a statement supporting a three-foot passing law, which was
then before the Ohio legislature. (Unfortunately,
the bill was later withdrawn.) Likewise,
the family of Matthew O’Neill launched a campaign, “Remember Matthew: Change
Lanes to Pass a Cyclists,” to extend and enhance California’s recently enacted
three-foot passing law, and to increase awareness of cyclists on our
roads. We owe it both to ourselves and
to those we have lost to be the best bicycle advocates we can be in our
communities.
But we can also do a lot through RUSA and through our
individual clubs to remember those we have lost. One of my favorite things about randonneuring
is the Société Adrian Hands, which has its own jersey and recognizes riders who
achieve a time on PBP “equal to or greater than Hands' 2003 finish time of
88:55.” While the mission of the Société
is somewhat jocular, it keeps Adrian Hand’s memory alive, and it perpetuates
the spirit he brought to randonneuring.
Because
of the Société and its distinctive tie-dyed jersey, I have had conversations
about Adrian Hands with riders in various states in the US, and in England, the
Netherlands and Norway, and I got to meet and ride with his son on a stretch of
PBP in 2011. I was very pleased to learn afterwards that Ian had managed to match his father’s time 88:55. As I have met others who have either joined the society or aspire to do so, it is clear to me that Adrian Hands is now a living part of an international randonneuring tradition.
Likewise, when I rode the Cascade 1200 this year, I found
that the ride jersey had RUSA number 2391 printed on one sleeve. In
this way, I got to know about Donald Boothby, who died a premature death from
cancer at the age of 61 in 2012. While I
never had the chance to meet him, I learned that he was a spirited randonneur,
and a much loved volunteer for Seattle International Randonneurs events. I thought that a wonderful way to remember
him.
In the same way, I think we need to keep alive the
memories of Mathew O’Neill, Joe Giampapa, Jim Swartzman, Stan Oldak, Gustavo Antonini,
and William Cupples. In some sense, they
are all still with us. We can look up
their results on the RUSA website, and we can talk with people who knew and
rode with them. And we can go on telling
their stories, and remembering what they brought to the sport.
Let us
ride on, then, no longer encumbered by their deaths, but enriched by their
presence.
Postscript: Since
I wrote this piece, I have learned of two more randonneurs who have died on
RUSA events. Jared Carr, aged 31, was
killed by a drunk driver while riding a 400K in eastern Washington on May 27,
2012. On May 18, 2014, John Fusselman,
aged 67, was hit and killed while riding a 200K permanent outside of Austin,
Texas. This means that at least eight
randonneurs have died on RUSA events during the 15-year history of the
organization, and 2014 has been an especially painful year, with three deaths.
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